Working hard for the money.

So... I am back at work, this time not working everyday. (not right this second) Oh wait.. I am working everyday. Heh. BUT! I am not working any 8 hour days this week. Next week, while I do work an 8 hour day, I will have a three day weekend.

Last week Chris got his unemployment check and it was around $150 less than it usually is. He thought.. Maybe cause it was the end of the month the pay period was short. It didn't sound that plausible to me.. And then when he went to file on Monday he found out the real reason. There's no more unemployment money for him. Zip. NAda. So, we are so totally poor. Well, not yet... But once the tax refund and the anniversary money are all gone, my paychecks combined will pay the mortgage and leave &380 left for bills. This is not enough. WEEEEEEEEEE! But anyway.. I am in high spirits.

Chris has a job interview next Tuesday. Maybe it will be something great. They asked for a salary range.. And he gave them one that reflects the low range of what he was making before and the high range, 20,000 more. They called, which means something in this range is possible. It really takes very little hope to keep me going. Even the absence of something very bad and a new day full of promise is also a huge help.

Why does Iris like to wake up at 5:30-6:30 and cry. I think I could even handle the early time if she started cooing in her crib. The crying grates on my mostly-not-awake nerves. She also does not fall back asleep when brought into our bed, which used to always work. She is still getting up at least once in the night. Luckily this hasn't been before 2:30am so I haven't been all that upset. I'm being tested! I really don't think I want any more children. I really don't think I could take the sleep disruptions again.. Plus Iris the toddler. Ask me again in a year or too... Even Chris agrees right now.. But he says maybe he'll think differently once Iris is older. I know that "someday" I won't remember all this.. And I'll wish I had my little baby back. I already have the pangs now because I stopped pumping in the morning and my milk supply has gone way down. Iris should get some bottles of formula to supplement. I tried to last night and it made me feel bad. A weird ache. The time is slipping away, she is already so big. She is crawling toward the mirror we put on the floor so she could see herself. She can really move... Turn away and she has disappeared... Where is she? UNDER THE SOFA! heh.

Where was I. Iris... Is the coolest. A superstar everywhere she goes. I am learning patience. Or.. I am learning that I am impatient, but now I realize I do it and can step back and chant she's only a baby. I say this so often, (I'm boring you, I'm sure) It is the hardest thing I have ever done and wow... The most amazing. This little person... is so cool. I'm learning a lot. Like that I have to make sure Chris is awake if I leave the bed so Iris doesn't crawl off of the bed and fall on the floor. Ooops. She's fine though, me leaving my clothes all over the floor has really paid off.

Here is Iris having some fun in the grass. It was her first time eating grass and tasting oak leaves. She didn't like the leaves, but kept trying them anyway.



This summer is going to be so fun!